I'm am a feind. I deserve terrible things. I am sorry I've made you mad. I understand what your doing. Your twisting my love. Your making me ruin things by myself. Your watching me do this. Waiting for me. I'm a sick person. I need help. I can't keep doing this to myself. Give me a way out. Whisper to me like you always do. Tell me I am filth. Make me regret my sin. I want to change. I don't know how and I can't by myself. Hold my hand and lead me through the fire I started. I can't keep suffering like this. I need your help. I need you to save me from myself.
A6
I hate what I'm becoming. Is this really me going insane? You were right its all shit. I need to stay away from it all. I have to get back what I lost. I need to be the one in control again. I have so much to do. I can't do it like this I need to be free of it all. I stopped holding but I can't shake you.
A5
I think I'm dangerous. People they trust me. They let me in. They trust me even though they don't know me and I feel obligated to be something I'm not. I wish I was. But it's not in my nature. Why is that? Is that why things always end the same? Poison only kills the the body. What does that make me?
A4
Everything you're doing is wrong. Talking to you makes me sad. I think about how bad things have gotten. And how unaware you are about it all. I miss you everyday.
A3
I haven't said your name in a long time. I hear it in my head at times. But its more of a sound than an actual name. Tied to it are all these memories id rather forget. I don't say it anymore. And when it comes around I just suppress it.
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