Heart (unpublished)

Too many of my blogs are angry.  I'm not always this way.  I'm often provoked.  I have a big heart.  I love all of my friends.  Even the ones I hate.  I love them all.  People that have really hurt me I still love.  I only ever talk about the pain.  But there is a whole other side to me.  A side few ever get to see.  I've tried to show this side to people.  But it seems no one cares to see.  I love too much.  I have the heart of a child still.  I can love unconditionally.  Without anything in return.  I can love those who don't love me.  Even if they hurt me.  I can love those I do not know.  Because I know somewhere someone loves them.  I'm not always like this.  My heart yearns to love someone.  And if I love you.  I love you.  I may not always tell everyone this.  But the few I do say I love you to mean a lot to me.  This post will not go public. (as if so many read this blog) but I write this for your eyes only.  I'd hate for you to think of me as some very disturbed person.  So believe me when I say that I cannot even begin to describe how much I love and care for you xxxx