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I know you can't. It's ok.  No one is perfect. I'm sure somehow it was both of us.  But I can forgive myself. I can take this.  You used to tell me about all these people in your life that hurt you.  And I would always say to myself.  Not me.  I wont be like them.  I will treat her well.  I wont ever make her feel the way they did.  I can't for her sake.  I still love you. I do.  Like I always did.  And it's that very love for you that wants to take the blame.  It's a good love.  We had something. I don't want to ruin it. I want to keep the good memories.  I want you to look back and smile when you think of me.  I want you to be happy about us.  You were right. It was inevitable.  And so I want you to be grateful for the way things end.  On a happy note.  No fight. No resentment. No hate. No sadness.  This has been the most positive relationship I've had since Jade.  You have done a lot for me.  I am eternally grateful to you for helping me so much.
So even though you wont say it. Or feel it.  Or want to accept it.
Lets say it was both of us.
But I take the blame. 
So that you can sleep at night.  So that you can be happy. So that you can smile when you remember.  So that I can finally feel like I've helped you.
I love you so much.
who knows one day it will rain. And you'll have something to smile about.
The pleasure was all mine Monkey
Thank you