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I guess it's a good thing.  I wanted you to join me because I wanted to remember what it was like to feel something for you.  I wanted to relive the old days.  I wanted to laugh with you.  I'm trying to get over the hate that I have for you. I haven't felt it in a long time. But I do feel sad about it.  That after all this time you would still deny me when all I want is an opportunity to make things different.. I really do mean it when I say I miss you.  When we were sitting together and I whispered it to you and you said it back.  I know you miss me. I know you'd like to talk.  To catch up.  You try too hard to make me like you now.  And part of me wants to give in.  But that's just it.
I know that there's a part of you that does it all out of guilt.
Part of you knows I'm broken.  And that same part knows it was all your fault.
I'm only sad because I have hope in us.  Hope that we will one day make things right. Talk about all the things we didn't, fix all the bullshit, and be friends again.
Real ones.