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Waking up to the same feeling
and I know
and I don't
and I wish
and I hope
and I can't
and I won't
and I just want to stop
Can't sleep can't dream can't stop
the fear
Living a nightmare unable to forget
and my heart keeps pounding
and I try too hard to keep it in
and as i take a breath i choke and I struggle
and I start to feel it come
and my heart beats faster
and I realize what's happening
and I fight harder push harder swallow hard choke cough
and remind myself
not today